I am human, I get affected

even when I know that nothing good will come out

of thinking about what others would think about one’s self.

But can you blame me,

if I care so much of what other’s would think of me?

everytime I am with you.

I wished I haven’t met you,

you are just way out of my league,

I cannot be beside you,

It would be like beauty and the beast.

But you love me, and I love you even more,

But the longer that we stay together,

the hate will start building up, I hate it,

hate it so much I could even bite my tounge until it bleeds…

I hate myself for I felt like you deserve someone better than I am.

But as much as I hate myself,

and as much as I wish you were gone,

You never leave. You just never leave do you?

And it pains me so much to see you suffer

from my own incompetence and insecurities.

It is like you’re letting yourself be the strength,

that pushes me through, when it should be me who does the moves.

And I appreciate it,

so much that I want to overcome these insecurities

and grow in maturity so you could be like the beauty and I am the best.

Just like that. Until the talked about the eventual end of this relationship

will just be another story to laugh at.

I will rely on you for as long as you let me to,

and you can rely on me for as long as we love each other

more than we love having sex together.